didnt reply her text at all. i don know what i am feelin. i don know if i still feel for you or maybe i do just that i am too tired of everything.

but i know i wanna meet you on mon. i wanna send you home. i wonder if you would allow me to.

dear sir,

i see and respected you as a father. and the only thing i need/want is your acceptance. i don mind not being a star, your fav or the fame. i just want you to accept me!

do you know i tried so hard to just gain your acceptance? the sacrifice i made? just to keep my hair long to please you? even thou you don put in me in demos but i still feel happy.

but now i wanna be myself for awhile. can? haiz

you blame my hair, is that how you make yourself feel better for not havin me in demos?

you don have to. all you need to do is to accept it. omg

its pains me to the point that my eyes feels watery.

had the time of my life with the one i so love the most! :] feeling all shag but still pull myself to meet you. you made the whole meetin with you worth every sec of my time!

i thought i was just gonna send you home but nopes, we went shopping. my 1st shopping trip with you. couldnt help but feel happy! thou i don express it much but boy am i happy!

were you tryin to spent more time with me? goin for potian and then arcard?

i really don mind sendin you home everyday but i am afraid you wouldnt like it so i actually limit myself.

love you wenqi. love you lots. i am starting to miss you! i am missing you. missin you lots!

wen i really fuckin miss you but i cant say it out to you. :[ argh too prideful.

i know tmr is ya birthday. may i send you home after trainin tmr? just to see you. i need to see you! dyin every moment to see you! i wont take up ya time if i send you home. ok thats what i think uh. but if you say no, then its ok, whats new?

business anit that simple. why don we choose which consumer we want? we cannot cater to all, thats my whole point. omg you all don get it coz u know shit about business.

i suggust you read some business book. the type of business and what business is all about. its not that simple, got money then we just cater. no no no, wrong mindset! i don know how to get throught to you guys thou.

nvm shan fight, just let it be. couldnt care less about it. coz the fight never end!

since my other stuff are open for you guys, i need an avenue to just say what i want without the need to care for anyone’s feelings really.

don assholes ok?

i tot i only needa do the logo and the summary will be settled by you? no then now i have to do summary + logo + survey + collating it? waaa smart uh, u all.

and how the fuck i know when you send emails? i needa check all the time? then how to work on the stuff?! don expect this and that ok. don assume.

i was really dyin to see you! like really dyin inside out! i need to see you. i want to see you! i have to see you.

i need you. NOW! TODAY!

there are times when time is not at your side! :[

when will i see you? when????

was strong enough to block you out of my head long enough if only i could hold on alil longer.

if only i didnt ask then will i not feel so sad.

this time i really miss you. like really. so badly.

i think i have fallen for the wrong person. AGAIN. :[ i don know when and how it happen but feelings developed. i mean on my part. but shes 1 i shouldnt fall for.

does that means i am over wq? maybe. she still has my heart thou but feelings anit the same no more. but its still hanging.

i still want her back. really i do.

i wonder who you wanna clone and be with for forever.

have you found someone new?

:[

if so who?

questions questions questions!

i would 1 day ask. 1 day! not anytime soon i guess.

reckon you wont tell me too. :[

oh well.

at least let me know you have moved on, so that it will motivate me to move on too.

i have so much to write about but i don know what to write nor where to start. my mind is kinda in a blank state for there are too many thoughts filling in my mind. so much so it just turned blank.

shall start somewhere………